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Friday, January 18, 2008
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thank God it's friday, really. school's taking its toll on me. and it's only w3 wtc. it's like 7 more weeks to the end of term 1 and uh 3 (i think) more weeks to cny. im looking forward to that. ive been looking forward to that since 2 jan arrived. today was an okay day. didnt help that last block was physics though. it's so whatever -.- please physics, start getting interesting if not i will become negatively charged thank you. helped abi paint the hadley banner after school, the banner is pwetty.
exco meeting was weird. i hope we didnt overestimate our abilities. but nah i dont think so, we are all neng gan de ren. i dont know why but i got quite (*&#(@!# over the july camp thingum? because after realising that it was lead conference therefore all the pb/ psb out and teachers will most prob be involved, i didnt exactly get why we were still talking about it. it was a suggestion, we decided it wasn't feasible let's move on. didnt see the point in going in one big circle and coming back to the same conclusion eventually. wanted to get started so that i could get over and done with that for the moment and focus on rest of the things i had to do. but i admit today wasnt my patient day. the moment i heard what i said i was like shucks why do i sound like that. but didnt mean for it to sound that way so honestly, whatever no hard feelings so let's leave it at that.
though well, if i go for shps (i will go most prob it's super fun) and if we qualify for pbb, it's going to be 3 camps, exciting. and most probably YL retreat will be held during the june period too. though haha we were planning to go to jiuzhaigou for a family holiday (though eventually most prob it'll just be me jie and mummy. dad's busy kor's still in ns) and well packed june hols means most prob no more holiday D: and going back to malaysia, was actually hoping that i can stay longer. all depends on when daddy can go though, but once i find out the dates of whatever camps and retreats, i shall book the dates ha. but anyway yeah i wanted to stay longer because i know that us being there does make a difference to grandma's recovery. and because over there i cant really do anything (no comp, no internet), i can spend time talking to her and encouraging her. and since kor and jie most prob cant go in, im the only one left out of the 3 grandchildren she has. im really proud of her though :D because when she does physio and she keeps going "pain pain" but she still does it! and she tries. which is really great. from what i hear over the phone, i think her speech is getting better, bit by bit. though it's still a little slurred from the stroke. but it's alright, whatever happens God's will is the best. well with everything going on, i'll have to find time for family. because that's one of my resolutions. and i really want to do it because family means a lot to me. obligations vs personal expectations of self. haha dont try to figure out what i mean by that, if not it'll most prob be the total opposite of what i mean. leave it at that yo. i hope nothing during the june hols will clash. if not it'll suck majorly. but i shall make it not clash ha.
worship pract made me very much :D :D though. i like the new song hannah's singing. well it's new to me la. thank You God for loving me. but haha one thing i like our gb being on mondays, is that i can start off the new week worshipping God. though aiyah sometimes it's difficult, but let's put that aside.
bought chippy's on the way back so that took the place of dinner. burning bright's camp comm came over to settle whatever was left for camp echo tomorrow. okay fine we just wanted to play together. and that was what made my day :D :D marcus invented stupid new games again -.- cant wait to see the cool video collage thing our wonderful camp photographer velda did. i have high expectations yo. tomorrow's going to be an exciting day. we've got it all planned out already woots. and giving out awards, of sorts. cool games. do our wonderful sazer-x morning workout dance thing. etc. etc. only downside is the jon's not going to be there, but we video-ed him before he went into the army so everyone can still see him (with hair). seeing them once a week (perhaps like once in a fortnight now. but at most twice a week) is seriously too little. if all the churchies were in rgs and all the friendies in rgs and everywhere were in church, that would be the perfect combination. if everyday's like camp and if camp is everyday, that would be yet another perfect combination. but alas, things arent always the way we want them to be.
after that talked quite a bit to brandon. been a long time since we could actually find a common time? yeah but even though it was a relatively short period, it's the quality not the quantity that counts wowza O: he's one of the few who offers good advice, which honestly isnt easy because that advice has to be in some way catered to the particular person you're talking to, like his/ her personality etc. haha it's funny how so many things can happen in 1 month. changes happen so easily, but how come it's so difficult to exact change, positive change. but anyway yeah, glad i got to catch up with him, so now im walking at the same pace as him. ive got to do the same to others soon before i end up having to run a marathon before i catch up. but some friendships once established will always remain.
speaking of which, im glad i wrote the short note to sulyn. because at least i managed to get things out of my uh head? system? yeah it's interesting how i wanted to drop by her class in the morning but didnt do so and decided nevermind another day. and after school met her while going to the gb room and so i passed it to her! whatever. yeah and she replied! and well i guess people like her, we can not talk and like live our own lives pretty much separate from each other, but we're friends no doubt. i've known her since p1, which means next year will be our 10th anniversary wowza.
called up to check on alex after that. troubled kid, and i dont blame him for that, except it's not easy talking to him if you get what i mean. circumstances and surroundings have such a large influence on primary school kiddos. and it either makes or breaks them. after that happened, decided that i'll call him once every 2 days. and jiahao will call him the the other days. dont know whether what im doing is out of guilt, we know we're in a position of help. and do just that we will.
kor came back on tuesday night. he's such a lucky pokhead la seriously. he got to spend the NIGHT at home while the rest of his platoonmates sleep on army beds (which are actually not too bad. as jie says, their beds are thicker than her hostel one -.-) because i think the earliest ferry on wednesday wont be able to take him back in time for the psc test. he asked me "am i darker?" i told him that if he wasnt darker, bmt is l0zer and would simply be a backpackers hotel la. he's so lousy he thought he lost his 11b (or is it d too lazy to check his sms la) which is the army equivalent of ic but he found it anyway.
jie's doing fine back in uk. though she says she misses me :D :D well i expected it anyway lol. ive been feeling lonely the past few days, but not to the extent where it's unbearable. but when i return home from school, (if my mum is back already) i'll tell her "your only child is back! -grin." i dont like it though. but anyway yeah dont miss them until im about to die (but i miss them enough to say i miss them) maybe because school occupies me most of the time. and if it's not school stuff, it's youth stuff. and ah yes must organise another YL meeting and discuss solid stuff yo. it's one thing being in the ycomm and another thing being the president of it. heavier responsibilities. no time for self, no time for family perhaps, and if my priorities go haywire, no time for God. one busy year but God be my strength and my guidance.
feeling super tired. cant be bothered to read blogs anymore. started a 1 week blogreading fast on wednesday. actually why do people read blogs in the first place? hmm i wonder lol. been sleeping later than i intended to. what happened to my resolution to sleep by 11.30 everyday. i dont believe it's unachievable. i think a result of that is that i find myself feeling "get off my back-ish" more frequently these days. and okay fine i believe it's because i havnt been doing my qt regularly regularly would be a gross understatement.
anyway, shall go sleep soon. after doing qt. i need to do it desperately. tomorrow's going to be a brand new day yo.
life's starting to get busier, i'll have more personal things to say. shall stop double-posting soon. like by next week or something. sorry folks. (blame it on yourselves for spamming my inbox ha. okay fine no it's nothing to do with that. see you all tomorrow. be excited!)
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